Demo 2009
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01. Shadow Dweller

I've been going from bad to worse
Then later back to sane.
Seven thousand, eight hundred and thirty two days,
struggling with the same.
The searing arrows of pain
is piercing through my heart.
Never found anything called mine,
everything I've known had to depart!

Lost! - in the shadows!
Lost! - in this part of myself.
Lost! - in this earthly hell
You know I'm doomed to stay this way.

It's always way too warm,
or it's way too (fuckin') cold.
Through these endless suffering,
all my feelings unfold.
I've felt all this hate within,
all the tears I've shed for you.
When I slit my wrist I knew,
It's so god damn good to be through.

Lost! - in the shadows!
Lost! - in this part of myself.
Lost! - in this earthly hell
You know I'm doomed to stay this way.

You might think that I'm... going crazy.
You might think that I'm... way too lazy.
Let me tell you little girl... you don't have a clue
Ahh, let me tell you little girl... if you only knew!

02. All That Was Mine

I waited and waited
to find a reason
The way you've acted
your treason.
Blindly I followed,
I thought everything was fine.
Slowly it crumbled down,
all that was mine.

Pre-chorus:
Stupidity Is Me

Chorus:
I want to let go of all that I have,
leave all behind - a waste of time.
I release myself from these prison walls,
From the vein of life - my blood will pour.

I drink to forget,
to forget and forgive.
Without her,
no reason to live.
Brotherly I welcomed,
the booze that flowed.
Imagined stuff,
moral was low

Pre-Chorus
Chorus

I hoped I was wrong,
but sadly not.
Holding around each other,
that gentle touch.
I envy everything,
that once was mine.
Stupid causes,
make stupid choices of life.

Pre-Chorus
Chorus

03. Not The One

So you think that I don't want to see
You think I could've done things differently?
All these things I say and do,
you think that they're all lies?
Hiding behind the fragile glass,
you're imagining our past.
You seem so sad that I'm not the one...
not the one I used to be once!

How could you be so blind and dumb?
Living in an illusion so fuckin' numb.
Influenced by everything you see,
only thinking of what I cannot be!?
Listening to what your friends say,
thinking about all the ways I could betray.
Somehow within I adore,
that deep inside you're just another whore!

Sly little smiles to make it seem perfect,
while in reality it's far from true.
Riding on your ego-trip baby,
doing it all for you.
I don't care what the hell they say,
or whatever they think I do.
Somehow within I adore,
that deep inside you're just another whore.